Let me ask you, what is your purpose and who do you live for?
I’ve always lived life on purpose. I have never questioned who I am. I have always known I am a girl full of passion, faith, and dreams. I am just a girl who has a love for for capturing people’s authentic personalities, playing sports, working out, my family & friends, & a good challenge.
That was me… until I went to college. The first few months I wasn’t myself. I wasn’t driven to do anything. I didn’t want to get involved, do photoshoots, do my homework, & I distanced myself from people back home. If you know me personally, you know that doesn’t sound anything like me.
I can’t even explain it. All I knew was that I had lost myself. I knew I wasn’t me, AT ALL. I would tell my roommate often, “This isn’t me. I don’t know what is wrong.” We had a lot of deep conversations about it, & still, I could not understand why I felt that way. It ate at me, so I spent a lot of time thinking about what changed me… Eventually, I figured out what was missing. So let me tell you what it was, because maybe you’re feeling lost too, maybe you aren’t feeling like yourself, or you aren’t genuinely happy with where you are in life.
After thinking about it for weeks, I realized it was a lack of purpose. In my hometown, I lived for other people. I never wanted to let anyone down so I worked incredibly hard all the time. I knew what everyone expected of me & that held me accountable. Eventually, it just became who I was. I loved the thrill of getting everything done on my to do list, having my days filled to the max, & I never said no to anything. I was all in, all the time and it satisfied me. When I was living at home my purpose was to make my parents & community proud. They were the reason I woke up every morning & genuinely looked forward to every challenge in my day.
Then life changed & college hit. Everything & everyone I had been living for was two hours away. I suddenly had no purpose. There were no kids watching my every move. My parents weren’t there to see everything I was doing, & I didn’t have my community to hold me accountable & support me.
I’m ashamed to say the first few months of college I didn’t go to church. I was only focused on getting adjusted to college. Church would be another thing to add to my plate, & I was already struggling to get everything done because I wasn’t motivated. I am sure some of you can relate. Thankfully, I made it to Crosspoint Church one Sunday, & turns out that was all I needed. It took just one church service for me to feel the normal energy, enthusiasm, & drive within myself again. After completely losing myself & finding myself again I realized my purpose was to live for the Lord. At home I wasn’t living for him. I was living for everyone else & when all of that was gone I was lost… until I found Him again. I’ve learned He’s the only person in life that will be watching over me & supporting me every second of my life.
CHALLENGE: So no matter where you are in your life I challenge you to find your purpose & let it be for the Lord. Live a life our Lord would be proud of, & then others will be proud too. He truly is the only one who will be right by your side EVERY. SINGLE. STEP. of your entire life. God has a purpose for you. Let his purpose for you, be your purpose for yourself too. Because I promise his purpose for you will be far greater than the purpose you have for yourself.
You, Lord, give perfect peace
to those who keep their purpose firm
and put their trust in you.
Trust in the Lord forever;
he will always protect us.
Love you all,